{"id":2061,"date":"1918-03-06T19:34:00","date_gmt":"1918-03-06T19:34:00","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/rajongo.lmvk.hu\/?p=2061"},"modified":"2020-05-16T15:35:50","modified_gmt":"2020-05-16T15:35:50","slug":"1918-03-06","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/rajongo.lmvk.hu\/?p=2061","title":{"rendered":"1918-03-06"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<p>Br\u00f3dyr\u00f3l, ifj\u00fas\u00e1gom nagy felfedez\u0151j\u00e9r\u0151l, bar\u00e1tj\u00e1r\u00f3l elgondolkozva, ez jutott eszembe: tal\u00e1n m\u00e9gsem igazi nagy \u00edr\u00f3, semmit sem lehet tal\u00e1lni a munk\u00e1iban, ami a bensej\u00e9b\u0151l, \u00e9lete legm\u00e9lyebb f\u00e1jdalmair\u00f3l, sokf\u00e9le k\u00fcszk\u00f6d\u00e9s\u00e9r\u0151l egy hangot, egy sikolt\u00e1st, egy rezg\u00e9st el\u00e1rulna. Pedig mi minden t\u00f6rt\u00e9nt vele! \u00d6t gyereke sz\u00fcletett, az els\u0151, S\u00e1ndor, Hunyadi Margit sz\u00edn\u00e9szn\u0151t\u0151l, akit\u0151l elment. Im\u00e1dott kisl\u00e1nya meghalt, otthagyta a feles\u00e9g\u00e9t, akit \u00e1ll\u00edt\u00f3lag szeretett. Rabja, bolondja lett Erd\u0151s Ren\u00e9e-nek, \u00e9vekig mart\u00e1k egym\u00e1st; megbetegedett, megrokkant, ekkor m\u00e1r nem volt k\u00e9pes dolgozni, \u00f6ngyilkos lett, fel\u00e9p\u00fclt; \u00fajra \u00edrni kezdett, \u00faj sikereket \u00e9rt el; csal\u00e1ddal, f\u00e9rfiakkal, n\u0151kkel bajl\u00f3dott. Csud\u00e1latos f\u00e9rfisz\u00e9ps\u00e9g volt, akiben janics\u00e1r v\u00e9rt lehetett sejteni\u2026 Mi minden lakhatott benne, micsoda szuggeszt\u00edv egy\u00e9nis\u00e9g! .<br>Szubjekt\u00edv \u00edr\u00f3, s e rengeteg \u00e9lm\u00e9nyb\u0151l sehol semmi az \u00edr\u00e1saiban. A Tan\u00edt\u00f3n\u0151t, a Lyon Ledt, a Szeret\u0151t \u00edrta, s reg\u00e9nyeket, novell\u00e1kat, csel\u00e9dekr\u0151l, \u00f6reg asszonyokr\u00f3l, \u00e9s semmit az \u00e9letr\u0151l, amelyben megf\u00fcrd\u00f6tt. Nem marad egy igazi hang ut\u00e1na, egy vallom\u00e1s, egy izz\u00f3 eml\u00e9k, nincs \u00fagynevezett vil\u00e1gn\u00e9zete. Kiv\u00e1l\u00f3an ki tudja fejezni mag\u00e1t, remek az \u00edt\u00e9lete, de \u00e9rt\u00e9ktelen a hagyat\u00e9ka, tal\u00e1n mert \u0151 is egy elvtelen, s alapj\u00e1ban opportunista ember. \u00edrni annyit tesz, mint vallani. Az \u0151 vallom\u00e1sainak sehol semmi nyoma.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Br\u00f3dyr\u00f3l, ifj\u00fas\u00e1gom nagy felfedez\u0151j\u00e9r\u0151l, bar\u00e1tj\u00e1r\u00f3l elgondolkozva, ez jutott eszembe: tal\u00e1n m\u00e9gsem igazi nagy \u00edr\u00f3, semmit sem lehet tal\u00e1lni a munk\u00e1iban, ami a bensej\u00e9b\u0151l, \u00e9lete legm\u00e9lyebb [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"novablocks_hero_scroll_indicator":false,"novablocks_hero_position_indicators":false},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/rajongo.lmvk.hu\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2061"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/rajongo.lmvk.hu\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/rajongo.lmvk.hu\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/rajongo.lmvk.hu\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/rajongo.lmvk.hu\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=2061"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/rajongo.lmvk.hu\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2061\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":2062,"href":"https:\/\/rajongo.lmvk.hu\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2061\/revisions\/2062"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/rajongo.lmvk.hu\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=2061"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/rajongo.lmvk.hu\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=2061"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/rajongo.lmvk.hu\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=2061"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}